I've got 28 years in this Game! I Love to Play and Yes I'm Here to stay!
This is my Mothafucking RED Friday! HEEEYYYYY!!!!
I am a Dragon, I eat unicorns for breakfast and shit magic all day long !!!
You ain't got Shit on me homie!
N while I'm at it I'll poo on you n laugh about it to... hahahhahahaha
Maybe you'll sprout a rainbow...It's what I do
I'm not fuckin afraid of them Cowards either
I'm fully funded by a higher Power~I am Not worthy either, that's why it's called Grace, you have to be humble to receive it and that I am... Humble and Grateful
A butterfly emerging from the cocoon this year... with out the fear... the fruition is so near.
Those closest to me caused so many tears...
Thank you God for the refinement it's what Keeps me ShInIn!!!
It's been a ride, can't believe these wings have healed and I can finally Fly.
The breeze of LiFe feels Amazin!!!
It's mine... to glide upon...this day and every day from now on... Yes I'm Blazin!
Today It's my Birthday... You knitted me in my mother's womb and planned for the day I would be born...Thank you God for this Gift.
A Bull is what I am
Stubborn and relentless
Defiant and rebellious
Breaking out of the fence every chance I get
Consistently pushing the limits
Why does the grass always seem greener?
A Happy Cow is a sight to see, the light with in.
Just standing in the breeze sway-less
Contentment in just being
Grateful in the blessings
Watching the frolicking cowlettes as I graze in my Lazy Haze
Firm and Immovable
Only yielding to the gentle hand
Be my Shepard O Lord in this Land
I'm supposed to be able to call you Right here, Right now, and you're supposed to pick up.
But you can't
I was going to post one helluva Happy Birthday on your Facebook too, but you wouldn't be able to read it, not then anyways...
I need you Pops, and this is the first glimpse for a second time of what it would be like if you really weren't around.
So Im going to say right here and right now, I love you and I'm grateful for your presence in my life...
I walked up to your old place today, for the first time since you left, I couldn't finish the walk...
I wish I could call you up and have one of our talks...
Im about to break and you're one of the greatest sources of my strength...
But it's because of you that I know "we'll" make it through this too.
A mother's love for her child is like nothing else in the world. It knows no law, no pity, it dares all things and crushes down remorselessly all that stands in its path.
- Agatha Christie,1890 - 1976
Parenthood IS the Hardest, Longest, most Grueling, Emotionally involved, Loose yourself in everyone else's shit job there is...But it is the most Beautiful Gift anyone could be given...
Kids don't really need us... That's why they're given to us... and then we die.
They are brought into our lives, not visa versa.
It's our job to keep them alive because it's their job to refine us as human beings...
after the superficial hustle n bustle of the daily world, they bring what's REAL back into being.
They're Gifts from God to teach us what it is to really LIVE life.
They are LoVes Purest Form presented to us lost in the socialization process of societies as innocent reminders of how we should be
The moments when we want to pull our hair out because we are trying to help our kids conform,
they are actually developing us...
to keep firm in our essences and stand beside them as the whole is criticized and shots are taken.
The Challenge is to be instinctually strong enough in yourself to be able to believe in them unconditionally...
The Goal is to let our Kids build up our Character rather than loose it to the world.
This moment your feeling right now... It's just part of the process baby.
Always try to do you're Best!... Sometimes spitting Venom IS what I do Best...
And to think this Is the edited version... Even I couldn't publish the Truth, It's so UgLy.
"It's a JoKe, it's a GaMe, Why am I still keeping ScOrE?"
Only 3 people in the world knew what Red October Meant... I'm the only one left.
I'm here for however long I'm here...
I don't fucking Like you, I don't know how else to go about it, just go Away Goober, you irritate me...
You want me to be a mouse in the corner... ROTFLMAO...Really? You got me fuckin TwIsTeD Homie... do you know what happens to corned animals? A mouse is the last fuckin thing I am... you better check it n yourself before I gobble you up, Imma BEAST boy...
I'm surrounded by Psychos, I was born and bred into em. It isn't about your efforts its about the joy you get putting in the effort, when it stops being fun it's time to move on... They set you up for failure, their words are venom straight from the snakes mouth. Conform and sell your soul, let go and just be whole... this is what you wanted anyways...
It's SAFE to say I completely understand why people blow out the back of their fucking brains... I don't blame them one bit... Nope NOT at All...
I haven't been completely honest with you... IDK what to do, I don't trust in my self, I damned sure don't trust you... This is a darkly tinged fantasy... The idea that I just might be good enough... If it seems to good to be true it probably is... Ignorance is Bliss...That's so true about you...The works of my own hands, guess I like the rain, I expect it... back and forth let the pendulum swing against my instincts...
It's been 2 years and still can't listen to Far Away, I still can't even bring myself to think about you, let alone talk it out, Forevers a long time... You're pathetic excuse of mandom disgusts me... Ew...I still Hate you Doodie... I'm sorry
WTF man... It's supposed to be Fish Fry Friday with Midnight Margaritas n smore shit...What the Fuck were you thinkin putting your God Damned Hands on ME!?... N I woulda been there too, to crack that mother-effer with a shovel the moment you said Charleston Chew... Reality sets in... it wasn't him, no love it was you... You say Imma a self centered Bitch... Well at least I'm centered! What does that make you? and NO one wants to be you...Who the Fuck do you think you are wishing my Baby a Happy Birthday?... You knocked his picture off the wall...I'm sorry that I needed you so, I looked to your light to help me grow, you shone like a the most beautiful rainbow, I thought I was a to be a color in your spectrum, adding to your beauty, an extension of your world like you were to me, but you didn't have enough to give, I'm sorry mine wasn't bright enough to help yours live. You were so much more than my Friend... You were supposed to be my Sister Star...
There is NO Dependable Reliance on Earth, They are but Man, even you my Hero...
I used to think you were so Invincible...
Who's left to be inspired by... Why bother right? They'll just make you cry, a breath... this too is meaningless a chasing after the wind... Humanity is a JOKE.
Whats the fucking point? To be a wind chaser?
I prefer to be a glider...Yup that's right a Free Form Flyer... Here I go Higher n Higher...
"CAUTION TO THE WIND! Complete FREEDOM!"
I Harbor lingering wishes for Life's missing entities... wounds will you ever Heal?
Nope It'll NEVER be the same!~ Scars sustain the memories
You attempted to put a Stake through my Heart! Good Thing I'm not a Vampire, This Dragon's SCALED UP!!!
Yup I'll Look my Pain in the EyE Like I Still Ain't Scared!
Fuck me Once SHAME on you, Fuck me Twice Shame on Me
All you got in the end is God~ I'll pull out my Mirror, I see you.
My light is yours and yours is mine... Guide me through this world... AMEN
Some things are so fulfilling they are almost impossible to express, This is my Love for you Boogie Bear
I was asked to do a writing assignment in college on things we learned from sayings our parents left us. I could hardly remember any of them...I couldn't really... I want you to remember the important stuff... Yes Sir the GOOD Stuff...so here we go Baby... This is your spot. ~Life's like a mirror you get out of what you put into it.~ Mom ~Let it GO!!!!~The most important thing Poppy ever told me ~Don't be stupid Girl.~ Grandma CJ~ In you're case Don't be Stooooopid Boy! ~YOU ARE AMAZING! yes a SuperNOVA baby! NO ONE has Spark like you do. It is my hope that you Blaze as Brightly as a Man as you do now. Don't you let ANYONE! EVER! Tell you anything different! Because at the end of the day you're still someone's AWESOME. Xoxo Mom ~Sometimes Baby it's not about the lessons you want to learn in life, it's about the lessons your supposed to learn. ~Momma
I think God Gave me Benji Boy to prepare me for you. You even got some Uncle Shawn in you too. You're definitely your Poppies grandson proving true love transcends all boundaries know and those not shown. You are such a special being, This I wish for you
I'd give you the moon, but you'd never know the warmth of the sunshine,
I'd give you the world, but actually what would that do.
I'd promise you wings to fly, but how would you ever learn to run,
So I wish you all you need, to be more than I can be.
This is what I wish for you.
I wish you rainy days, so you can know the beauty of a clear blue sky
I wish you falling leaves, so you'll understand that seasons change.
Cause, if I gave you the mountains, would you learn to climb,
I pray you'll always see; the forest through the trees.
And this is what I wish for you,
And this is what I wish for you.
If I could I'd say the word and take your fears away,
And I'd stay right by your side and show the way you should take.
But this your life, this is your story, and we know this, go ahead and say,
I hope you live with no regrets.
I wish you ocean breeze, and rivers that can bring you everything you dream,
I wish that the air you breathe, is all that you'll ever need.
And I wish you nights of love, and days of joy and shoulders when you cry,
And just enough helloes, to get you through, goodbye,
And this is what I wish for you.
I pray one day you'll have a home, with arms stood open wide,
And you'll have someone who loves you, always by your side,
And if you lose your will to try, I wish you wings to fly.
I wish you wings to fly.
I wish you everything you need.
And this is what I wish for you,
And this is what I wish for you.
"You picked out a star and we framed it with our fingers intertwined"
Look how you glow baby boy! You're my little star and I LOVE you!
