Confession Session

Always try to do you're Best!... Sometimes spitting Venom IS what I do Best...
And to think this Is the edited version... Even I couldn't publish the Truth, It's so UgLy.

"It's a JoKe, it's a GaMe, Why am I still keeping ScOrE?"
Only 3 people in the world knew what Red October Meant... I'm the only one left.

I'm here for however long I'm here...

I don't fucking Like you, I don't know how else to go about it, just go Away Goober, you irritate me...

You want me to be a mouse in the corner... ROTFLMAO...Really? You got me fuckin TwIsTeD Homie... do you know what happens to corned animals? A mouse is the last fuckin thing I am... you better check it n yourself before I gobble you up, Imma BEAST boy...

I'm surrounded by Psychos, I was born and bred into em.  It isn't about your efforts its about the joy you get putting in the effort, when it stops being fun it's time to move on... They set you up for failure, their words are venom straight from the snakes mouth. Conform and sell your soul, let go and just be whole... this is what you wanted anyways...


It's SAFE to say I completely understand why people blow out the back of their fucking brains... I don't blame them one bit... Nope NOT at All...

I haven't been completely honest with you... IDK what to do, I don't trust in my self, I damned sure don't trust you... This is a darkly tinged fantasy... The idea that I just might be good enough... If it seems to good to be true it probably is... Ignorance is Bliss...That's so true about you...The works of my own hands, guess I like the rain, I expect it... back and forth let the pendulum swing against my instincts...

It's been 2 years and still can't listen to Far Away, I still can't even bring myself to think about you, let alone talk it out, Forevers a long time... You're pathetic excuse of mandom disgusts me... Ew...I still Hate you Doodie... I'm sorry

WTF man... It's supposed to be Fish Fry Friday with Midnight Margaritas n smore shit...What the Fuck were you thinkin putting your God Damned Hands on ME!?... N I woulda been there too, to crack that mother-effer with a shovel the moment you said Charleston Chew... Reality sets in... it wasn't him, no love it was you...  You say Imma a self centered Bitch... Well at least I'm centered! What does that make you? and NO one wants to be you...Who the Fuck do you think you are wishing my Baby a Happy Birthday?... You knocked his picture off the wall...I'm sorry that I needed you so, I looked to your light to help me grow, you shone like a the most beautiful rainbow, I thought I was a to be a color in your spectrum, adding to your beauty, an extension of your world like you were to me, but you didn't have enough to give, I'm sorry mine wasn't bright enough to help yours live.  You were so much more than my Friend... You were supposed to be my Sister Star...

There is NO Dependable Reliance on Earth, They are but Man, even you my Hero...

I used to think you were so Invincible...

Who's left to be inspired by... Why bother right? They'll just make you cry, a breath... this too is meaningless a chasing after the wind... Humanity is a JOKE.

Whats the fucking point? To be a wind chaser?

I prefer to be a glider...Yup that's right a Free Form Flyer... Here I go Higher n Higher...

"CAUTION TO THE WIND! Complete FREEDOM!"

I Harbor lingering wishes for Life's missing entities... wounds will you ever Heal?

Nope It'll NEVER be the same!~ Scars sustain the memories

You attempted to put a Stake through my Heart! Good Thing I'm not a Vampire, This Dragon's SCALED UP!!!

Yup I'll Look my Pain in the EyE Like I Still Ain't Scared!

Fuck me Once SHAME on you, Fuck me Twice Shame on Me

All you got in the end is God~ I'll pull out my Mirror, I see you.

My light is yours and yours is mine... Guide me through this world... AMEN

Z's Spot

 

Some things are so fulfilling they are almost impossible to express, This is my Love for you Boogie Bear

 

I was asked to do a writing assignment in college on things we learned from sayings our parents left us. I could hardly remember any of them...I couldn't really... I want you to remember the important stuff... Yes Sir the GOOD Stuff...so here we go Baby... This is your spot.


~Life's like a mirror you get out of what you put into it.~ Mom
~Let it GO!!!!~The most important thing Poppy ever told me
~Don't be stupid Girl.~ Grandma CJ~ In you're case Don't be Stooooopid Boy!
~YOU ARE AMAZING! yes a SuperNOVA baby! NO ONE has Spark like you do. It is my hope that you Blaze as Brightly as a Man as you do now. Don't you let ANYONE! EVER! Tell you anything different! Because at the end of the day you're still someone's AWESOME.


Xoxo Mom


~Sometimes Baby it's not about the lessons you want to learn in life, it's about the lessons your supposed to learn. ~Momma

I think God Gave me Benji Boy to prepare me for you. You even got some Uncle Shawn in you too. You're definitely your Poppies grandson proving true love transcends all boundaries know and those not shown. You are such a special being, This I wish for you

I'd give you the moon, but you'd never know the warmth of the sunshine,
I'd give you the world, but actually what would that do.
I'd promise you wings to fly, but how would you ever learn to run,
So I wish you all you need, to be more than I can be.
This is what I wish for you.

I wish you rainy days, so you can know the beauty of a clear blue sky
I wish you falling leaves, so you'll understand that seasons change.
Cause, if I gave you the mountains, would you learn to climb,
I pray you'll always see; the forest through the trees.
And this is what I wish for you,
And this is what I wish for you.

If I could I'd say the word and take your fears away,
And I'd stay right by your side and show the way you should take.
But this your life, this is your story, and we know this, go ahead and say,
I hope you live with no regrets.

I wish you ocean breeze, and rivers that can bring you everything you dream,
I wish that the air you breathe, is all that you'll ever need.
And I wish you nights of love, and days of joy and shoulders when you cry,
And just enough helloes, to get you through, goodbye,
And this is what I wish for you.

I pray one day you'll have a home, with arms stood open wide,
And you'll have someone who loves you, always by your side,
And if you lose your will to try, I wish you wings to fly.
I wish you wings to fly.

I wish you everything you need.

And this is what I wish for you,
And this is what I wish for you.

"You picked out a star and we framed it with our fingers intertwined"

Look how you glow baby boy! You're my little star and I LOVE you!

A Thousand Apologies My Star

A thousand apologies I could send your way, but then I'd spend my time apologizing my day away

It's a waste of being to say I'm sorry when the words just aren't true

I have to do me; you have to do you

If a sorry is what you're looking then here's your suffice:

It's safe to say that your focus needs more focus

Let it go so you're perpetual momentum can continue flow and grow until you're glow shows,

You'll out shine em all Lady.

You're a beacon Baby! Light up and lead the way

A light in the dark your glow comes from with in,

Quit smoldering it, let it blaze!

Choose your own growth, don't stay stuck in that cellophane, it's only a phase.

Don't hate, it's bad JuJu, 

It all comes back full circle, the good thing about being down is the getting up.

It's all perspective... You can be sure Love is what I keep emitting...

SheRa

I am SheRa!!! A Warrior Princess here to kick your ass and take your Kingdom BIIIIAAATTCHH! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... Yeah that's right! I am several somebodies Hero... I am Ya Ya! A Temple of Light that Shines so bright I can ray happiness into other peoples day! A Humble Servant acting without hesitation at the beckoning instructions from with in... Instinctually following... I'm sure to win.  I have WiNgS crafted and mended Flawlessly by the maker of Life...I take Flight! Whoooshhhhhh! I Soar! See me Fly... I am a Leopard Sun Dragon! See me I Glow... I am Woman.