A Healing Heart

Leo I still miss you...will you ever go away? I dreamnt about you just the other night... walked into something so familiar and yet so foreign. It was her home now, somehow I found myself downstairs touching the bookshelf from the office, pictures I found there, pictures of stockings over the fire place, cute kids... then it hit's me their hers. Why do the tears still fall when I'm awake? Go Away... forever that's what you said, please God Let it be, take him away from me forever.

God, please stay... Amen
xoxo me

~ Could you believe it still hurts after all this time... Even the infinite lapse couldn't bring peace... Let it fly like a Dove. In this photo you can see the Love. It's my fav, it reminds me that the immense pain was caused by something equally genuine... Thank you for showing what Love is in it's entirety... xoxo me

~I had another dream about your alternate life. I hate this! I wish you would just go away. I hate seeing her glamor shots on the wall,  Fuck that Fugly ass BITCH... hate how different you are, especially around her, hate the changes in the home we made. Why would I even go visit your mother there? That's how this one started... my heart breaks all the way through, I always wake up with tears rolling down my cheeks... I still miss you and I hate you for it. Please just leave, there's no room for you anymore. xoxo me

~I'm afraid to feel for someone else what I felt for you. It still hurts so much. I have a whole list of songs I don't ever want to hear again, I don't ever want to feel that kind of pain.

This was so us... I still mourn you... I still miss you...
"Yellow diamonds in the sky, We found LoVe in a hopeless place"

11/2011~It's time to close this Chapter... I don't dream about you anymore, It'll be 3 years this July and I finally found someone Amazing, he's not you. I thank God I dodged a bullet, good looking out. I finally found the good in goodbye.